Only Human

Only Human

You all think I'm so strong cause of where I am right now

because I've come back from being at rock bottom so many times

because I'm trying to redeem my soul by reaching out to others,

cause I'm trying so hard to be a better person inside and out

What did I do so wrong, that I've suffered like I have?

It's OK for you to stand there and say it's all over, that it's in the past now

but what about the scars I wear down my arms, no one can remove them

(no matter how faded they've become over time, I still see them)

but what about the things you can't see or fix

(the self hatred deep inside, the disbelief of love for another, for me)

but what about the tears that never fall, or you don't see

(cause you've told me so many times how proud you are, that I feel weak showing you I still hurt)

I can't lie, I don't regret where life has taken me

but its been such a hard road, to walk

Forgive me

when I turn away, go silent

allow me this minute to grieve, please?

So many goals and dreams shattered

I even sunk so low that I would stick several needles up my veins each day, just to

aww fuck it, it didn't numb anything

or take anything away...

death couldn't touch me, once twice three times

(more)

I'm only human and yeah I've dealt with so much

but it's still a stain in my book, upon my heart

and it still hurts some days