I'm not immortal, nor do I explode or sparkle in the sun
I don't drink blood and I've moved on from cutting skin
I'm not a monster but I know they exist amongst us
yeah, that's right - I've seen them
I've looked into the eyes of many, seen the emptiness of death within
these beings are devoid of remorse, they feed off the fear they cause
they have twisted and warped motives - they believe their own lies
there is no morals or ethics, their bodies hollow
their souls sucked out and vanished...
to me it doesn't matter if they mutter "I'm sorry"
so the man in the chair will go easy on them...
I'm only human - final judgement is not my card to play
and there are some crimes, one cannot come back from
My only role is one of two choices..
to give in and let madness overtake me, to hand in my soul
to live to the best of my abilities, to grow and let go
myself for all the self blame, all the self hate
for all the anger and rage stuffed within
for all the hurt I inflicted while lost in confusion
for all the drugs and drink I attempted to block out not just feelings and things
but the love from those who really cared
For all the pain and worry I inflicted I own and if you can accept my apologies
then an amends I make...
You don't have to believe me, as I said before
I trust that I'm trying to be the person I was meant to be
and my Higher Power
and acknowledges my humanness and the things I've come back from
I accept the mistakes I've made
and I try to find the lessons from it all
I drop my guards
I let in and out love
I am not a heartless or harmful beast
I am not the negative wrath I once expressed through violence and hate
mistrust and coldness