Serenity broken, just like that
A match lit, quick as that
the switch got flicked and the demons swarmed…
I hear the teeth gash at my femininity,
no violation, hasn’t been in years now
but one moment, one trigger…
and my body remembers,
while the mind just spits up every fucking image
There’s no tears right now, cause this will pass again,
cause I know it’s not real…not anymore,
it’s just a bit unpleasant and sickening in this moment
and every nerve within me screams and tingles, as I’m stuck in squirm mode,
silently denying consent, echos on my eardrums…I was the only one to hear it yesterday year…and again here
But it’s alright, I’m alright
stronger, I’m stronger
I know this is just a finger running over scars
and nothing more
a distant triggered memory…
I survived, I’ve got that…and more than
all of you will ever know
the demons will get bored and fade back into the darkness
as the match dies out
faith blankets my inner child, I self sooth (no longer just whip “that bitch”…cause she’s innocent (yeah, she is me & I was/am innocent too)
God that feels good to hear me say
cause it’s settling within
cause I know it’s representing truth
this is just a body memory, what happens when the triggers pop (surprise, oh yeah thanks, a fuckin’ surprise)
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