A Shimmer Of Softness

I'm not immortal, nor do I explode or sparkle in the sun

I don't drink blood and I've moved on from cutting skin

I'm not a monster but I know they exist amongst us

yeah, that's right - I've seen them

I've looked into the eyes of many, seen the emptiness of death within

these beings are devoid of remorse, they feed off the fear they cause

they have twisted and warped motives - they believe their own lies

there is no morals or ethics, their bodies hollow

their souls sucked out and vanished...

REDEMPTION

to me it doesn't matter if they mutter "I'm sorry"

so the man in the chair will go easy on them...

I'm only human - final judgement is not my card to play

and there are some crimes, one cannot come back from

My only role is one of two choices..

to give in and let madness overtake me, to hand in my soul

or

to live to the best of my abilities, to grow and let go

FORGIVE

myself for all the self blame, all the self hate

for all the anger and rage stuffed within

for all the hurt I inflicted while lost in confusion

for all the drugs and drink I attempted to block out not just feelings and things

but the love from those who really cared

For all the pain and worry I inflicted I own and if you can accept my apologies

then an amends I make...

You don't have to believe me, as I said before

It's alright

I trust that I'm trying to be the person I was meant to be

and my Higher Power

hears me

loves me

forgives me

and acknowledges my humanness and the things I've come back from

I accept the mistakes I've made

and I try to find the lessons from it all

Here...

I drop my guards

I let in and out love

I am not a heartless or harmful beast

I am not the negative wrath I once expressed through violence and hate

mistrust and coldness

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