Negativity

I know I'm a drifter at heart

to afraid of staying in one place to long

to afraid of listening to new songs

I know only of yesterday and plans for today

tomorrow's to far away to think about

I've got a lot of things that could change plans made

at the snap of a finger click

Mostly it's the way I feel, I enjoy my time alone

a comfort space zone, ten miles square

It's not so easy to get hurt on your own or have others on your back

about issues you've been silent on for so long

Less people to hurt on your own. when you know a choice made

is a choice that affects everyone who says they love and care

Less people to make pressure when you're in the middle of

a moral/ethic fight within

that carries guilt and shame before the choice is or maybe made.

Maybe tomorrow I'll be somewhere else, maybe I already there

maybe I'll just stay a little longer, maybe right now I just don't care

I feel I'm a dreamer, doomed to never hold a secure dream

commitment scares me to much and a contract can be broken

who cares when you've already tasted loss?

And success comes to a stop soon after it begins

Negativity has its rewards as well as its downfalls

what a shame I think this way - a shame to who? You?

This is about my choices, my games, my wins,

my whims.

freeflowpoet 1999