Poised

Poised...

Poison pen poised above my heart

fear in the eyes of a child

dread in the eyes of a 'man'

Promises mean nothing coming from your mouth

Inked dark dreams now the doorway of hell

hath been opened

spawned lies forth your breath

I'm trapped in the grasp of yesterday

choke hold around my neck

with wire veins pulsating panic

I drop to my knees and search for the words of prayer

save me

Justice taunts me

your vile hand holds the key

Slap me

your vile hand marks me

Scratch the history in blood soaked ink

I bleed truth

you bleed nothing, silence

again you mute me

again you laugh at me

again you mock me

again you lie to me

And still I love thee

Poised, I wait for you to right me.

Shapeshifter (Dreams)

Shapeshifter (Dreams)

From out the shadows

they ebb and flow

Nightmares that come to life, life that come to nightmares

in the darkening hours

when slumber should be my only concern

Shapeshifter

a piece of my past that comes to haunt me

over and over again

I cower under the covers and watch with sweat pouring down my back

and face

horror, I scream a silent scream

long winded within, I can't breathe

I'm back in the evils that trouble me

my yesterday has become my tonight

and my tonight an endless time

I can't escape...

All I Have To Say

All I have to say

You stole not only moments but years

from this child

Like a kid in a candy store

your eyes feasted for awhile

before like the thief that you are,

You pocketed my innocence

and strolled away without a care and sound.

You masquerade as a friend

when all you were was a fiend

laying in waiting for your next taste of sugar,

A child or a naive teenager

innocence and purity all you craved,

it's nothing but a game to you

and you've not learnt a thing

for every time you've been caught,

be it by the law or otherwise

You're nothing but a low life

a predator preening the next catch

of your eye

But rest assured you son of a bitch

justice may have over looked me

in my life

Yet I'll make sure it's a watched step you walk

all your living days

And mark my words

it'll be hell where you spend those days after

your very death.

There's A Reason (No Gun)

There's A Reason (No Gun)

There's a reason why Gods' never let a gun cross my hands

Cause I'd do something that can't be undone

or would've done something unjust..even in an unjust world

for deep in my peaceful heart i don't believe

in an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth

I believe in a hope that lady justice

won't always be corrupt,

won't always get it wrong,

won't forever over look this 'mans' rights,

cause I've had no charges heard

that have been done to me,

cause I've not had my time in court

all the monsters and crims in my life walk free

while my trial continues

to run day by day

night by night

As the tears softly run down my face

the mind flashes what would be my outcome

if God did place a gun in my hands

and once the trigger clicks

there's no undoing the damage

One small entry hole, one exploded exit point

and forever these eyes would close

I'd fall down over and over

like a dream i couldn't

wake from

and I'd still bare the pain I wear now

yet over time I'd be forgotten

and my death would be in vain

So no gun will cross these hands

cause I'm meant to win these battles

meant to share my words

to show the other sufferers that despite their pain

we have beauty within,

we are worthy of better things

and this place is full of beautiful things

at present we mightn't see

Child (I Walk Alone)

Child (I Walk Alone)

Never thought you'd get blood from stone

Well child you've never seen this heart of mine

It beats like thunder, booming on your eardrums

There's passion like fire in my eyes,

There's need like a freight train running through

my veins,

There's tears flowing with every word I speak,

every word that passes through my teeth

Anger feeds the fuse within me

that's why you find these arms empty,

I walk this world alone

So not to break your loving heart,

So not to hurt my head anymore

Love is a stranger to my name

hate the food I feast upon

and drink but never get quenched

of thirst on

Pain is your enemy, while it's all I've come to know

I walk alone

I walk alone

I'm untamed guilt and shame,

an imprint of human sin

nothing but a stain upon shattered innocence,

I'll never be (a child again)

Mercy Me...

Mercy Me... 

So full of vile vemon 

A rage built of experiences, bitter and demeaning 

Layers of Innocence, like baby skin, stripped away 

leaving a raw nakedness 

exposed to evil elements 

in a place this child had no choice to 

call 'home' 

Abused, neglected, raped 

Justice sat back while another child 

fell through the cracks, 

of a flawed system 

All love lost 

only harsh lessons to be taught 

Barren eyes look outwards, fire building 

inside them 

and you can only sit 

curse, judge, scorn 

But, not one person 

questions 

why

Pussy footing

Do you feel that soft breeze brush past your leg, my friend?

listen with your heart and you shall not be so alone in grief
for She walks with you where ever you go
Gone physically from this realm, but not from your memory
with each heart beat in your chest She lives on
watching
God has given Her peace from her pain, she lived so long
happy with you, now happy with 'Him'
and She will be waiting for you when your last breath is released
Pussy footing around...   

In response to Nebulous passing away.