Don't Ask

Don't ask me how I am

I'll wear a smile, while my heart's breaking

on the inside

I'm fucking angry...

my head torments me, telling me lies

(dressed as truth)

Would you still be here, and not as the ghosts haunting my memories 

I know I wouldn't have changed the paths taken, just stalled the inevitable

nothing I should've/could've said, would've kept the (hearts) beating (song of life)

I'm back at that point in time, you using, me begging...you saying no

Standing in front of myself yelling "tell someone", tears streaming cause I relive losing you...but I'm the one turning blue (you just become another memory I miss)

I'm back in that point of time, reading your texts... replying instead of just waiting for another time (that'll never come)...

angry, cause whenever I press send

they just bounce back

Angry that I never got to see you, where I am now

Angry that I never got to tell you

I don't hate you, I understand that darkness you were lost in

Angry

I'll never get to see your infectious smile...

Angry at this disease 

for taking you so young

that some get it, some don't 

Angry

at another senseless loss,

that makes sense to a soul who's been there

Having fucking empathy

doesn't make it any easier to swallow

It hurts saying goodbye (echoing)

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