Amends

I look into the eyes of my past

and all I see is wrath

One by one the tears roll

fresh

down my cheeks

I was not a babe in mother's arms

when my purity left, walked out

died...

ashes blowing in the winds

I was just a lonely child

afraid

and hate and harm surrounded

stripping the young flesh

from my bones

Then when I awoke I was

no color, no sex

just another lost soul

falling through crack

after crack

Oh God how can I undo all I've done?

Who will undo all that was done to me?

I used to say my wrath was justified

but who was I

to pass on all my blind lessons

to those I filled with hate

veiled to look like love

sold as loyalty

I didn't even believe in

Oh God in this reflection

I see all the evil

reaching out from within me

I can only tell those I touched

I'm sorry...

I made 101 mistakes,

had I not I would never of

learnt the lessons I know

of now

forgive me for not seeing

the corruption doing full circles

Believe me when I say

I love you sweetness

trust me when I say

don't follow the footsteps I leave

(not those I've left)

I see the pain

looking out my own eyes

Sweetness - I do understand

your silence

Open your mouth and speak your anger...

I know I deserve it...child

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