Dark Places and Apologies

Dark Places and Apologies

Sinking in my own falling tears

looking in the mirror with the smashed glass, reflecting

broken man

lost within my own mistake, which nearly cost me my life

Once so confident

not so tall right now.

I apologize over and over, til my lungs feel like they're gonna burst

how many have I hurt? Words mean nothing, it's in your tone...

I know I'm draining your energy, love can only stretch so far

I know your life is on hold right now

inside I wish you'd just walk away, give up on me

Why, why do you love me so?

Can't walk on these smashed legs of mine, unaided

my nerves jerk and jump, make me twitch

yeah I'm entertaining the depression swimming within

one, two, three...going under, no more air

So many questions, too many struggles now

I'm 32 and yet my soul has out lived those years twice or more over

What am I meant to learn from this challenge Lord?

I'm tired of fighting these battles, walking in the darkness (alone)

I hear everyone saying, including myself

"You came through this alive, there is purpose in this life"

tell me what the fuck it is cause I'm sick of pretending I care anymore...

fed up beating myself up inside, I'm here praying tonight

for an easy answer, a quick fix that won't cause more heartache or shame

I'm sorry I lost control, sorry I let you all down...

what more can I say?